How many times has one heard others say: “It will be ok.”

We tell each other, tell ourselves that everything will be fine. Especially at the very bottom – or however our mind perceives the situation, we cling to the fragile statement, trying to hold the last pieces of our sanity. Indeed, neither of us can guarantee that things will get better or worse, because, for a simple fact: everything lies in possibilities.

Is the future exciting or… scary?

I’ve spent a good amount of my life being anxious about how my life will be, unknowingly of the obvious that I was/am living my life. Not that I was never aware of it, since I’ve too had my moments. When I think about my worries and anxieties, it did come with many unreasonable standards built in the society, the media, people’s expectations. But for the most part, I was anxious because I thought I knew how the future would turn out to be, which I didn’t.

Looking back at myself 6 months ago, I thought by now I would have been sitting in my tiny room in Padova, hustling with my internship and thesis, longing about my never-ending long-distance romance, and getting ready to go back to Vietnam at the end of the year. I didn’t know, not long after that, a spark of events happened and I am now still here in Hungary, happy with a new chapter of my life.

The future seems less frightening, but exciting instead. That spark of events definitely had my eyes wide open about how my eyes had been shut the entire time. The idea given is to clear the worries off my mental space to welcome whatever is ahead with compassion and gratitude.

My life is filled with love and the future is absolutely magical!

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Update 9/11/22: I’m currently sitting in my room in Padova, trying to finish my thesis while recovering from the biggest heartbreak of my life, feeling lost. But I’m also learning so much, I have dived deep into my soul and seen so much. I don’t know if I will be able to love someone that much again. Thus, life feels a bit scary.