These days I have tortured myself for my stupid decisions. How stupid, making rush decisions that I knew they would someday hurt me to the core. I wish I could grow up and have a vision to protect myself from the outside world. people’s words. people’s actions. Intentional or unintentional.

I never want to blame anyone else other than myself since it is me that let myself fall for anything that ‘sounds’ good. I knew it. I (kinda) knew it from the beginning. Words are just words. Promises are empty. What really killed me was, this is definitely not the first time this happened to me. Afterall, I hope this would be the last time I did this to myself.

Thank you for the lesson. I now know I am more fragile than I thought. I am broken. and selfish. My wounds are open and soon will turn into the scars that forever remind me of my stupidity.

…….

Tonight I cut it open and watch it bleed.

Tonight I face my wounds.

Words

are sharp.