Me: *writing about living healthy and healing

Also me: “Am I actually healing and feeling good? If I am actually satisfied with my life, do I need to write it out to boost my ego? Remember, people who always talk about power have power issues.”

Also me: “You’re absolutely not fine.”

Also me: “Maybe not 100%, but it is a journey. Doing something to make you feel better is always good. Write it out, talk about your emotions, being proud of yourself!”

Also me: “But think about it. Are you ok?”

……

Me: *transcribing the interview audio for thesis thinking “Damn people! You don’t want to travel to New Zealand because it’s a cliche destination?! So now it’s all about not looking cliche huh?”

Also me: “Damn girl! How judgemental are you! Let them be! You are not better for not caring about the looks.”

Also me: “No, damn you! Stop saying that about yourself. You’re learning and unlearning things. It’s ok to judge a little bit so you can learn.”

….

Me: *hearing someone said they hated the US because people there are ignorant and shoot guns “The US may be overrated but there are more than that. Just admit that you’re under its influence.”

Also me: “Being judgemental is natural. Let people have their points of view for God’s sake.”

Also me: “You’re being judgemental about people being judgemental. You’re no better!”

Also me: “It’s not about being better. Just be.”

….

Me: *thinking about how I should tell this friend to define their own “coolness” and stop caring about other’s opinions

Also me: “When did it become your problem? Have you, yourself, stopped caring about other’s opinions?”

Also me: “Very true, it’s not my problem at all. I should just let them be.”

Also me: “But I’m allowed to speak my mind.”

Also me: “About the way I want to live. Not how others should be.”

Also me: “So what now?”

…

Excuse me, can you just stop thinking, perhaps?