We’ve made it.

Through all the four seasons.

You came into my life on the first days of winter, when it was so cold and I’d thought I wouldn’t push it through the graduation. Then you were there at my graduation, a gentle and loving surprise. Winter was when it all happened for us.

You were also there through all the transitions of springtime, especially when I was lost and confused. Spring is usually the season of rebirths, but last spring brought me to places. I wasn’t always good, but you stayed by my side through the darkest hours.

We then slowly moved to summer. We had our first jobs together. Summer got us sweating non-stop, our bodies pained but we enjoyed our creative space, as well as the stress. Summer loving did happen fast but it didn’t just stop there.

Now that we’ve arrived in fall, we began the season with days paralyzed on bed. Again, I wasn’t at my best, but you never stopped loving me. You looked after me. I took care of you. Until we celebrated your birthday yesterday: black bean noodles, fun lottery for good luck, board games, family and friends.

I don’t want to stress out about what will be there for us anymore. It doesn’t matter. I’m not worried. After all the seasons, all the spaces we’ve been together, I see a full circle: you and me vs. the world.

My life has been full of trips, small trips and big trips. There have been moments where I feel completely fixed and done with traveling, but, at the same time, ‘what is Anh even, without all these travels?!’

I remember all my school trips always ended up with a fleeting feeling of disappointment. I wasn’t sure what I was expecting for, but I knew I had wanted something more to happen during those trips. Now, having passed those teenage years, I’ve gone to realize how passive I was, I expected something but all I did was waiting for that ‘something’ to happen. How silly!

This week I went to Perugia as the city was full of surprises. The whole city has been developed on mountains and so entering the city brings us to layers of houses, cultures and history. I came to discover the knowledge of Etruscan’s civilization, the ancient underground city. One evening, Niccolò and I went to watch a David Lynch’s movie at a youth cultural cinema and enjoyed Perugua’s underground young scene. Truly, Perugia is a dynamic city, however, all of these surprises wouldn’t have happened if we hadn’t been actively seeking for new experiences.

People who know me also know how much I have been wanting to settle. But settling doesn’t mean that I want a static life. What I mean is a strong foundation for growth and new adventures, a forever loving home that I build to shelter my heart and mind, in order to feel safe to be creative, and to create.

Today’s full moon we dedicate to our inner love. We close our eyes, take a deep breath in then release. In our mind, we call the image of the people that we love, how they smile, how they embrace us in their arms, or simply with their warm aura.

We then continue to call in the people that we know, will never leave our side, the ones that love us. All they wish for us is a good life, no matter how that good life looks like for them, the intention is there: they want us to be happy.

We feel warm. We feel the love intertwined. We feel our love and their love. We love them unconditionally and we know that we are loved unconditionally.

If you’re reading this, I love you.